In Heat: Six Erotic Stories by Jacinda Boudèt

Author:Jacinda Boudèt [Boudèt, Jacinda]
Language: eng
Format: mobi
Published: 2023-11-24T00:00:00+00:00

5 – Rushing Back

I’m in the restaurant with Mona when the topic of Richard comes up.

“C’mon, Rachel, admit it,” she says to me, “you’re still thinking of him.”

I sigh, look off. It’s like she can read my mind. I guess in that case, I better not lie.

“Yeah,” I say, blowing out my bangs as I look back at her, grab my glass of wine for another sip.

“And how’s that going for you?”

I roll my eyes. “It’s not.”

“It’s been months, honey – you should be over him by now.”

“I know.”

Now it’s Mona’s turn to sigh. “You never called him, right? Never showed up to your old hangouts, looking for him, driving by his house…none of that shit, right?”

I shake my head. “None of that. I was cool, calm, collected. It was hard, but…”

“But you got through it,” she says with a nod as she too reaches for her wine glass. “And that’s all you can hope for with a breakup like that.”

We sip our wine, letting the silence fill the space between us. The restaurant is busy on this Wednesday night. That was the night Richard and I usually had our date night each week. Sometimes we went to Tony’s, other times a place he liked. Either way, we always ended up back at his place to fuck.

God, I miss that.

I haven’t had sex since Richard. I want to…desperately so. But each time I think about doing it, I can only think of him.

Clearly I’m not over him yet. Sometimes I wonder if I ever will be.

Mona puts down her glass and looks at me with a smile. “And then there comes that choice,” she says, looking off whimsically as if seeing past relationships, future ones, or God knows what.

“Oh?” I say, cocking my head to one side. “And what choice is that?”

“You know… the choice.”

When my eyes narrow she continues.

“When it’s been long enough, you’ve been apart and you’ve gotten over him but you still cherish that time together.”

“Like I feel now,” I say, blowing my bangs out again.

“Exactly. Well…you get there and you realize what you had was special, but also that you can live on your own, you don’t need anyone.”

“So…the choice?”

She smiles. “You can live without him…but do you want to?”

What she says hits me hard, both for the truthfulness of it and how exactly it hits at my situation with Richard.

I can live without him, that much is clear. Hell, I’ve been doing it for over three months now.

But…do I want to?

Mona and I have a few more glasses of wine before we leave the restaurant, call it a night. But all through my night at home, in the back of my mind, I keep thinking about…him.

Should I call?

Would he be down to give it another go?

Am I just being stupid and crazy and out of my mind?

In the end I figure it’s the wine talking and I go to bed.

But when I awake in the morning, those same thoughts remain. In fact, they’re more powerful now than when I went to sleep.

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